Sunday, October 31, 2010
Movember;
I am doing Movember this year.
Im not going to shave it all off and start
again because it doesn't grow very fast..
SO, Instead of doing that i will be leaving
my mo' on and shaving my beard and seeing how
much it will grow over the next month.
I will put photo's up each week to show progress =]
Parkway Drive;
The best song to listen to when your pissed off at one of your Ex's =]
Great song!
Fucka Youa
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Day 1 - Favourite Song;
Well i have 3 haha so here is all of them.
The Past Should Stay Dead - Emarosa
Love Comes Again - DJ Tiesto
Escape - The Devil Wears Prada
Random Fact About Me #1;
I love the rain.
The way it can cause so much destruction,
Yet be so fragile on its own.
The way it can be so loud,
Yet can be so quiet.
The way it soothes my mood,
Yet can make me so angry at the same time.
I do love the rain, But i also hate it.
It's such a good love / hate relationship
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Lovin Life;
So today has been awesome for me and it just keeps getting better.
Drove a tractor for the first time in my whole life and didn't fuck anything up! Not once!
Plus i get to drive it all day again! And i got to finish work at 2 and get paid until 3:30!
I also learned i am being made full-time in the next two weeks!
AND!
Mum is buying me my Soundwave ticket for me for Christmas, but i will be getting it tonight.
This has made my day super awesome and i am super happy! Lovin' Life!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Emarosa;
The one band i will never get sick of.
Amazing band in every single way!
The vocals are intense!
The guitars are well played and have amazingly thought riffs
The drums are simple but effective
The bass you can actually hear in every song!
I would like to share one of my favorite songs by them with you =]
The Past Should Stay Dead..
Enjoy!
This is the LIVE version of the song.
And this one is the album version.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Work;
Most of the time i hate it, like today.
Fucking overtime sucks balls. Start at 7:30am and finish at 5pm. WTF!?
Ah well. At least i will have enough money for my next tat in 3 weeks time.
So it's all good really. Except i feel like shit and im fucked.
Dear work;
I hate you.
The end.
Fucking overtime sucks balls. Start at 7:30am and finish at 5pm. WTF!?
Ah well. At least i will have enough money for my next tat in 3 weeks time.
So it's all good really. Except i feel like shit and im fucked.
Dear work;
I hate you.
The end.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Late night thoughts
I havn't had a late night up listening to Blink in a long long time.
It gets me thinking a lot.
And i miss my bestfriends..
I have lost them all.. It sucks.. a lot.
No one really knows the pain of losing 5 best friends in one foul swoop.
I can't believe how selfish i was and how hurtful i could be towards them,
after all the years of kindness and support. For only me to throw it back in their face..
I want them back. I want to be able to laugh with them without having that strong disgusting feeling in the back of my throat and deep in my stomach.
I want to be able to laugh with them and not feel as though they are always second guessing with me, to see if i am who i once was, to see if i have became that guy i once was.
I don't think there is any words to describe how i feel about it all.
Sorry isn't enough, and will never be enough.
I just don't think after me saying those words " I'm Sorry " that it could go back to normal.
But i guess i could start by saying them.
Just until i can find the right way to show each and everyone of them that i am sorry.
Ryan;
I'm sorry.
For betraying you, for lying to you constantly. For breaking the bonds we had.
Izzy & Tom;
I'm sorry.
For being the jerk and not listening to the advice you guys were giving me and trying to help me through those times.
Holly;
I'm sorry.
For not seeing you as much as i should be, for not being there for you when you needed it and wanted it. Even if you wanted a shoulder to cry on. I wasn't there..
Jess;
I'm sorry.
Even though i know these words don't mean anything to you anymore.. this is what its for.
For leaving you stranded, not helping you when you need it the most. Not supporting you, not paying attention to you, not taking interest in what you were saying or doing and basically not making the effort for anything. You have always been my best friend.
I do not care what anyone else says. I will not let anything stand in the way of us being friends. We are past the part where we still had feeling for each other. But now it's different feelings. I believe now, we have grown up. We have matured. We have become adults and don't argue with everything we say. I am glad to say thankyou for everything. But i still wish to say sorry once more.
And if your one of those sad fuckers that think stalking this and telling my girlfriend about it is going to make us fight, guess what. She knows. She can read. It's all on here and i admit i wrote it. Get the fuck over it. If anyone isn't alright with me saying all these things on here and talking to my old friends then just leave. Because if you can't believe the things i say, then that's your problem.
It gets me thinking a lot.
And i miss my bestfriends..
I have lost them all.. It sucks.. a lot.
No one really knows the pain of losing 5 best friends in one foul swoop.
I can't believe how selfish i was and how hurtful i could be towards them,
after all the years of kindness and support. For only me to throw it back in their face..
I want them back. I want to be able to laugh with them without having that strong disgusting feeling in the back of my throat and deep in my stomach.
I want to be able to laugh with them and not feel as though they are always second guessing with me, to see if i am who i once was, to see if i have became that guy i once was.
I don't think there is any words to describe how i feel about it all.
Sorry isn't enough, and will never be enough.
I just don't think after me saying those words " I'm Sorry " that it could go back to normal.
But i guess i could start by saying them.
Just until i can find the right way to show each and everyone of them that i am sorry.
Ryan;
I'm sorry.
For betraying you, for lying to you constantly. For breaking the bonds we had.
Izzy & Tom;
I'm sorry.
For being the jerk and not listening to the advice you guys were giving me and trying to help me through those times.
Holly;
I'm sorry.
For not seeing you as much as i should be, for not being there for you when you needed it and wanted it. Even if you wanted a shoulder to cry on. I wasn't there..
Jess;
I'm sorry.
Even though i know these words don't mean anything to you anymore.. this is what its for.
For leaving you stranded, not helping you when you need it the most. Not supporting you, not paying attention to you, not taking interest in what you were saying or doing and basically not making the effort for anything. You have always been my best friend.
I do not care what anyone else says. I will not let anything stand in the way of us being friends. We are past the part where we still had feeling for each other. But now it's different feelings. I believe now, we have grown up. We have matured. We have become adults and don't argue with everything we say. I am glad to say thankyou for everything. But i still wish to say sorry once more.
And if your one of those sad fuckers that think stalking this and telling my girlfriend about it is going to make us fight, guess what. She knows. She can read. It's all on here and i admit i wrote it. Get the fuck over it. If anyone isn't alright with me saying all these things on here and talking to my old friends then just leave. Because if you can't believe the things i say, then that's your problem.
Change;
There are a few changes in my life about to happen.
One of my best friends is about to have a child.
A little boy. I will be uncle Mikey..
It's strange to think it could have been the other way around.
I could have been the dad already, i could have had my life planned out.
Sometimes i wish it did happen. Sometimes I'm glad it didn't.
I have a stable job that is paying all my debts.
Soon i will be debt free for the first time in 3 years..
It's the best feeling to be almost debt free.. imagine how its going to be when i am debt free.. I believe it will be insane. I will be the happiest i have been in a long time.
20 already, next year ill be 21.
Oddly scary but exciting at the same time.
I don't know what it will be like.. But i believe I'm ready for it all.
One of my best friends is about to have a child.
A little boy. I will be uncle Mikey..
It's strange to think it could have been the other way around.
I could have been the dad already, i could have had my life planned out.
Sometimes i wish it did happen. Sometimes I'm glad it didn't.
I have a stable job that is paying all my debts.
Soon i will be debt free for the first time in 3 years..
It's the best feeling to be almost debt free.. imagine how its going to be when i am debt free.. I believe it will be insane. I will be the happiest i have been in a long time.
20 already, next year ill be 21.
Oddly scary but exciting at the same time.
I don't know what it will be like.. But i believe I'm ready for it all.
Nothing goes to plan.
"Violence"
6 bottles went down the drain,
one hours waste of time,
I’d ask if you feel the same,
still pushing that chance to try,
your breath in this cool room chill,
long hair that blows side to side,
you speak and make time stand still,
and each time you walk right on by...
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after.
Can’t count all the eyes that stare,
can’t count all the things they see,
she kills with no life to spare,
just victims are left to bleed,
one drink and the pain goes down,
soft shadows lay by her feet,
lay soft as you slowly drown,
lay still while you fall asleep. (Fall asleep)
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after.
(And after…and after…and after)
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me…
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me…
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after.
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after.
[Lady Voice:]
My dearest
I've missed you very very much since that last night we were together
And will hold that night especially in my memories for years to come
I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately
I've read you're letter through at least 4 times
And will probably read it more times before I'm through
I've been sitting here
Looking at you're picture and getting more home sick every minute
I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of
Except of course you, you're self
I keep thinking of you darling
I keep wishing I could be home with you
I want to leave in the worst possible way so I could come home to see you But:
Things don't look to good on that subject
This war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess
I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now
I'm completely lost without you darling
I never realized I could miss anyone person so much
I just hope it won't be too much longer till I'm able to be with you again
And live a sane and normal life.
6 bottles went down the drain,
one hours waste of time,
I’d ask if you feel the same,
still pushing that chance to try,
your breath in this cool room chill,
long hair that blows side to side,
you speak and make time stand still,
and each time you walk right on by...
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after.
Can’t count all the eyes that stare,
can’t count all the things they see,
she kills with no life to spare,
just victims are left to bleed,
one drink and the pain goes down,
soft shadows lay by her feet,
lay soft as you slowly drown,
lay still while you fall asleep. (Fall asleep)
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after.
(And after…and after…and after)
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me…
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me…
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after.
Like violence you have me, forever, and after
Like violence you kill me, forever and after.
[Lady Voice:]
My dearest
I've missed you very very much since that last night we were together
And will hold that night especially in my memories for years to come
I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately
I've read you're letter through at least 4 times
And will probably read it more times before I'm through
I've been sitting here
Looking at you're picture and getting more home sick every minute
I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of
Except of course you, you're self
I keep thinking of you darling
I keep wishing I could be home with you
I want to leave in the worst possible way so I could come home to see you But:
Things don't look to good on that subject
This war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess
I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now
I'm completely lost without you darling
I never realized I could miss anyone person so much
I just hope it won't be too much longer till I'm able to be with you again
And live a sane and normal life.
This has to be my all time favorite song by Blink 182. There are also a few others i believe bring back memories, but none as much as this one does. The most happiest and miserable memories are locked away in this song.
But, there is the happy side to this song. It is the one song that reminds me that nothing goes to plan, no matter how perfect the outcome seems, no matter how perfect the plan seems. Nothing ever goes to plan. I try not to plan anything these days because i know that at least 98% of the time it will not happen.
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